Oral communication...kill me.
Seriously I don't get it...so many words, theories and philosophies to define talking. Talking.
I don't even like talking! Why do I have to sit here?!
Maybe I need a class for "having a better attitude."
Shoot.
Mexican Train Dominos is where it's at.
You get me around a big table with a group of great friends and I'm stuck for hours playing this game...
Seriously go to the store and pick it up...and invite me to your house to play.
I've hit a wall this week.
I'm incredibly tired. Tired of lots of things. Tired of ignorant people but through it God is teaching me grace. Tired of classes and homework but still trying to be a good student. Tired of friends yet loving them so much and wanting to be with them all the time.
I'm tired and I have no idea why.
So I'm going away for the weekend with Jenna and some other girls.
I'm incredibly excited to get away but also wanting to stay home in Redding.
I know I will have so much fun and I truly need some time away with some refreshing people who only will lift me up during this time of uncertainty.
I'm breaking some promises and commitments that I made for this weekend, but I hope people will understand. I have lots...loads...mucho thinking to do and part of me thinks this is why I'm a little apprehensive about running away to the woods of Jenna's home town. But I know it's what I need to do, to get away from distractions and seek God.
Prayers needed.
I don't want to do anything...but the homework is piling up. I wish today could have bee a lazy day.
I had to force myself to wake up...
to go to old testament.
to go to World Civ (which I especially hate)
to go to Chapel.
to go to US History...
and now to do homework...is it the weekend yet?
"The question isn't if the government is too small or too big, it is if the government works!"
Now let's get united.
7:00 Wake up...hard to do after 5 hours of sleep.
8:00 Oral Communications...not so excited about that one.
9:30 Intro to Sociology...interesting class but a not so interesting professor.
11:00 Quick meeting with Emily about my job. Paperwork, Paperwork, Paperwork.
12:00 Lunch
2:00 Staff Meeting. Loved it...being apart of the team...sharing my ideas...love it.
4:00 Run to old office, catch up with the ladies and got my sunglasses adjusted.
5:00 Blockbuster, Jamba Juice, and pick up food for my mom.
5:59 Sitting here resting/reflecting on the day. This is going to be a crazy semester but I could not be more excited about it...Planning Erase the Dark, getting creative for the Stirring, my great friend Roseleen is now going to Simpson, and my roommate is engaged so that's fun...lots of other fun/ new things going on too!
Now I'm going to rest and catch up with my vampire friends...book 3. haha!
and a happy new year.
This morning I woke up and I think it was some kinda "freaky Friday" but "freaky Thursday" deal going on. Last night was New Years Eve, it did not feel like it at all. I hung out with my best friend Steph at her house, watching The Duchess, eating ice cream and in bed before 2am. All the while my parents were at Matt and Kendall's, playing Rockband, having a good ol' time and were not even home until 3:30am...Now I'm home from Steph's house and they are still sleeping.
So weird.
On another note, being that it's the New Year I thought I'd welcome in 2009 with a blog, I know my blogs have become scarce and far in between, but I'm pretty sure you all have gotten used to it.
I've never been a goal oriented person. If I ever set goals I usually forget about them, so I never know if I achieve them or not. Mostly, I think this is because I don't look to far into the future; I live in right now. It's not that I don't have dreams, I have plenty of dreams...
I would love to travel Europe (Norway, Sweden, England, Holland, Russia and so on.
I would love to one day open a Fair Trade and local artisan store called Hannah's Kloset.
I would love to work in India, Thailand, or Uganda.
But I have no idea when I will do these things, and it doesn't really matter. I could easily say I want to do all these things within the next ten years, but really, how realistic is that? I'm not trying to be a downer for people who have goals, but for me, I just can't do it. Life happens and far too many times have a put all my...whats the saying...something in a basket...let's say I have put all my pine cones in one basket and something changed or God has lead me on another path. From this point in my life, I know what God has lead me through has molded me into the person I am and I am grateful for where He has brought me...but at all costs I am going to avoid the disappointment and depression that I have already gone through.
I think this is starting to sound depressing.
For those dreams I have, there is no doubt in my mind that I won't do them but it may be when I'm in my 50's or 60's and that is completely okay. Because life happens, in the next year I see myself finishing the semester with passing grades (there's a resolution), putting on an amazing Erase the Dark, having great times with friends and family and continuing my journey following Christ. So I guess I laid out some pretty good goals for me...but who knows after that? Not me.
